Category: feeling

Moonlight

Water is another country. --Dionne Brand, A Map to the Door of No Return At first, the sound of water. Residence time.1 Black time. Black untime. The memory of water—the memory water has—the memory water is. We keep returning to the water. We keep being returned to the water. A face plunges into ice. Again. my … Continue reading Moonlight

Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving TV is terrible: families gather from far-flung places; there are predictable anxieties over whether this or that family member will show up; fights break out over many unreconciled issues; tears flow; and, whether at the beginning, middle, or end of the show, families sit down to eat a meal and someone, usually the matriarch, … Continue reading Thanksgiving

refuge

At first, once a week, and then twice a week, and, eventually, four times a week, I’d head for the gay club in downtown Pittsburgh. It was small, located below street level, dark, leaning toward seedy, and, had I bothered to think about it, a death trap. Middle aged white men gazed at white twinks—the … Continue reading refuge

self-preservation

History is not kind to us we restitch it with living past memory      forward into desire into the panic   articulation of want      without having or even the promise of getting. --Audre Lorde, “On My Way Out I Passed Over You and the Verrazano Bridge” I have been curious about selfcare/self-care/self care as it has circulated attached to Audre … Continue reading self-preservation